I’ve been overweight basically since I was eight years old. It was like a switch flipped and all of a sudden the same activity level and diet I had had backfired on me for no apparent reason. Unfortunately, I think this inexplicable weight gain actually handicapped my efforts at weight loss. I believe I grew up from that point on convincing myself that I wasn’t a fat person (though I couldn’t deny that I was larger than most my age) simply because something outside of my control and my efforts—or lack there of—had caused me to balloon. I’m 24 now and I’ve finally had a change of mind – and a change of life.
I had honestly thought that I ate relatively well. Sure, I didn’t have the healthiest of eating habits, but I didn’t see my daily food intake as extreme by any means. A little under a year ago, it was like another switch had flipped – not a sudden weight gain or weight loss this time, but instead a sort of enlightenment, as silly as that sounds. I don’t recall simply realizing that I was eating way too much in each meal. Instead, it was like my mind began this gradual process to segue myself into healthy eating. I know I read on some random weight loss tip websites, magazine articles, and so on that people have a bad habit of eating when they’re not hungry. So I came to understand that one of the biggest hindrances to weight loss is continuing to eat even though your stomach is satisfied. That was the first big step. When I would make burritos, I used to eat three. I tried two for dinner the next time we had them and I found that I was filled. The next time I tried one and some veggies on the side and, again, I was filled. This same pattern happened with all my food.
Now that I sit back and look at it, I can’t believe that my meals are now about a third the size they originally were. I’m still flabbergasted that I thought the way I ate wasn’t all that bad. I really do believe this is the problem that the average person has when dealing with weight loss: seeing the truth for themselves and accurately weighing their diet. We’re too afraid to admit to ourselves just how unhealthy we are because we like what we eat. But now that I’ve changed (and lost a good 65 pounds), I like myself more than I ever liked the crap that I ate.